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I leaned my forehead against the dark window, welcoming the
feel of the cool glass against my feverish skin.
I could feel the night calling to
me, though I didn't exactly know what I meant by that. It had been happening
more often lately—it was a strange tugging on my mind.
Something was pulling me out into
the dark.
In an unguarded moment, GM had told
me that my mother had had visions. The way the night called to me, I wondered
if this feeling was the beginning of a vision.
I wished I could talk to my mother.
I'd been wishing for that more and more often lately.
I turned away from the window,
trying to shake off the feeling that tugged on my mind, and I picked up the
framed photograph that always sat next to my bed. In the photo, a man with
curly brown hair and a pale, blond woman smiled as they kneeled on either side
of a laughing, fair-haired girl of five. The inscription on the back was hidden
by the frame, but I knew well what it said. In GM's busy scrawl were the words Daniel,
Katie, Nadya.
My father, me, my mother.
Though the memories were faint, I
did remember those early days in Russia. I remembered the big apple tree and the
roses that grew at our house. I remembered playing with my red-haired cousin,
Odette.
I remembered, too, the day GM had
taken the picture. Little had she known then that her son-in-law and her
daughter would be dead soon afterward.
My father had died first in an
accident in the mountains. My mother died just a few weeks later of a fever,
and GM had moved us to the United States shortly after that. We'd been here for
eleven years now, and my old life was beyond my reach for good.
I set the picture down.
The darkness continued to call to
me, and I tried to force my mind back to reality—back to what was normal and
safe and unrelated to the unknown out in the dark.
I thought of my friends—and
school—but even as I did so, I felt a sudden, sharp tug on my mind, and I was
seized by an irrational desire to run out into the night—and to keep running
until I found the source of the summons.
I closed my eyes and willed the
feeling away.
After a moment, the night calling
began to subside. I concentrated harder, pushing it further away from me. In
another few minutes, the feeling was gone entirely. Relief flooded through me.
I was free.
I stood for a moment, breathing
hard and looking around at all the familiar objects in my room, as if to
reassure myself. Then I climbed back into bed and turned out the light.
I was just drifting off to sleep
when I was jolted wide-awake by the sound of a car tearing down our street. The
car screeched to a halt somewhere below my window, and then turned sharply into
our driveway.
I sat up. I heard the muffled slam
of two car doors outside, and I heard GM, who usually kept late hours, hurrying
toward the door.
I got out of bed and fumbled in the
dark to find a robe. I was puzzled—who could possibly have come to see us in
the middle of the night?
As I hurried out of my room, I
heard a heavy pounding on the front door, followed by a woman's cry.
"Anna! Anna Rost! Annushka! Open
the door!"
I froze in the hallway. Only GM's
oldest friends called her Annushka—and there were precious few of those.
I heard GM quickly unbolt the door
and open it.
"Galina!" GM shouted in
shock. Her voice rose even higher. "Aleksandr? Is that you, Aleksandr? How
tall you are! I scarcely would have recognized you."
I wished I could see who was at the
door, but I knew that if I went downstairs, GM would just order me back to my
room. She clearly recognized her visitors, and they were clearly people she had
known back in Russia.
And GM never allowed me to get
involved in anything that had to do with the past.
I crept to the top of the stairs
but remained in the shadows—the better to hear without being seen.
"Annushka!" Galina cried.
She had a heavy Russian accent—much heavier than GM's. "Annushka! I had
scarcely allowed myself to believe that we'd actually found you! Oh, Annushka! After
all these years!"
"Hush, Galina, hush," GM
hissed. "You'll wake my granddaughter. Come in. Quickly, now."
I could hear the clack of a woman's
footsteps in the hall, followed by a man's heavier tread. The door was closed
and the bolt reset.
GM led her visitors down the hall
to the kitchen.
I tiptoed down the stairs and sat
on the bottom step. I wouldn't be able to see into the kitchen from my perch
without leaning over the banister, but I knew from experience that I would be
able to hear.
GM's voice floated down the hall to
me. "Since you're here, Galina," she said, "you and Aleksandr
may as well have a seat."
I heard chairs scraping on the
kitchen floor.
"You're not entirely happy to
see us, are you, Annushka?" Galina asked.
"I am happy to see you,"
GM said stiffly. "I am not happy about what it is that you bring with
you."
"And what is that?"
Galina asked sharply.
"Superstition," GM said
wearily. "I have a feeling that this conversation is going to be
difficult. However, we may as well try to be civilized. May I offer you both a
cup of tea?"
"Yes, thank you," Galina
said.
I heard water running as a kettle
was filled.
A moment later, I heard GM sit down
at the table. "I suppose you have a good reason for storming my house in
the middle of the night?"
"Annushka, we need your
help," Galina said urgently.
"Then why didn't you just
call?" GM snapped. "Why fly all the way here from Russia? You did
come from Russia, didn't you?"
"Yes, we did."
GM snorted. "Ridiculous. Again,
I say, why didn't you just call?"
I figured that everyone in the
kitchen was too absorbed in the conversation to notice me, so I risked a look
over the banister. GM was sitting with her back to me, and I could see that she
had pulled her long silver hair into a ponytail that flowed like silk down her
back. She was resting her elbows on the kitchen table as she regarded her
visitors.
Facing GM was a woman who was young
enough to be her daughter. She was blond, and she wore a nondescript beige coat
with brightly colored mittens. Next to her was a young man who seemed to be in
his early twenties. He was wearing an olive-green military-style coat, and his
hair was an odd shade of brown—sort of a cinnamon color. There was a strong
family resemblance between the two of them, and I guessed that Galina and
Aleksandr were mother and son.
Aleksandr must have felt my eyes on
him, for he transferred his gaze from GM to me.
I felt a flash of panic as
Aleksandr's eyes met mine, and for just an instant, a feeling of
strangeness—something wildly foreign—washed over me. I quickly pulled my head
back behind the banister.
I froze, waiting to hear if
Aleksandr would tell GM that he had seen me.
But Aleksandr didn't say a word,
and silence settled on the kitchen. I relaxed.
"Why didn't I just call you?"
Galina said at last, breaking the silence. "I feared you would not listen.
I feared you would hang up on me. Was I wrong about that?"
GM did not reply.
"I tried to keep in contact
with you," Galina said mournfully. "You didn't answer any of my
letters or phone calls."
"I didn't answer you," GM
said, "because you wanted to involve my granddaughter in your nonsense. You
wanted to make her believe that nightmares are real."
"I wanted to teach
her," Galina replied angrily.
"So that's what this is all
about, then?" GM snapped. "You, in your great wisdom, have decided
that the time has come for you to drag my granddaughter into your world of
darkness and ignorance?"
"I did not choose the time,
Annushka," Galina said. "It was chosen for me. I feared something
like this would happen, and if I'd been working with Ekaterina all the time,
maybe we could have prevented this."
I was startled to hear Galina call
me by my Russian name—no one ever did that—it was almost as if the name weren't
even mine. To my family I had always been Katie—my English father had been
responsible for that.
"I don't want to hear your
nonsense, Galina," GM said curtly.
"Annushka, you have to
listen!" Galina cried. "He's free! You know who I mean—"
"You will not speak that name
in my house!" GM shouted.
Just then the kettle began to
whistle, and I jumped.
I heard GM get up, and the
whistling soon stopped. There were other noises as GM clattered around, getting
the tea ready.
No one spoke.
"I am sorry," Galina said
softly, after some time had passed.
I heard GM's chair scrape as she
sat down again.
"I will not discuss this if it
upsets you," Galina added.
"You don't believe in the
supernatural, do you, Mrs. Rost?" Aleksandr asked.
GM snorted. "The mischievous
spirits and the vampires? No, I do not. Those are just stories designed to
scare people—tales about the supernatural are nothing more than a way to spread
fear."
"They aren't all mischievous
spirits," Aleksandr said lightly. "They say the Leshi, for example,
is actually quite a good fellow. Though you make an excellent point about
fear—there are darker things than vampires in Krov."
"You are too young to believe
in such foolishness," GM said wearily. "Why can't any of you from the
old village have a normal conversation? Look at me. I started over here. I lead
a safe, comfortable life now. Can't you do the same?"
"I heard you are a graphic
designer," Galina said.
"Yes, I am," GM replied.
"I don't even know what that
is," Galina said, and there was a note of wistfulness in her voice.
"There's so much that you
miss," GM replied quickly. "How are you doing, Galina? How are you
really? Are you happy? You know that in my heart I miss you. And don't you want
good things for your son? How about you, Aleksandr? How are you?"
"Still unmarried. Ask my
mother," Aleksandr said in amusement.
"Shut your mouth,
Aleksandr," Galina snapped, her tone unexpectedly sharp. "Don't be a
fool."
"Galina, why don't the two of
you move somewhere else?" GM asked.
"We can't leave—"
GM broke in hurriedly. "I
don't mean leave Russia. I mean leave the village—leave tiny little Krov. Move
to Moscow. Or another big city. Russia is such a beautiful country. You don't
have to stay in that dark, tiny corner of it. Move some place where there is
life—where there are new things."
"Though you will not admit
it," Galina said, "you know why I can't leave."
Silence settled on the kitchen once
again.
"Annushka, there are lights on
at the Mstislav mansion," Galina said after a time, her voice low and
edged with fear. "The house has been deserted for a long time. You know
when that house was last occupied—it was eleven years ago."
"Perhaps his son has decided
to take over the place," GM said evenly. "It would be nice for
someone to sweep out the cobwebs. It was a grand old mansion, and it should be
restored to its former beauty. The house itself certainly never did anything
wrong."
"They opened the old airfield
two weeks ago and began fitting up a plane," Galina said. "That's
what made us decide to come here."
GM was unimpressed. "So? It
would be nice for everyone in the area to have a proper airfield. It might
encourage good things."
"Annushka," Galina said
urgently, "his house is lit up again. And it was his plane
they were working on. You know the one I mean—he bought it when he first
amassed his fortune."
"I saw his plane myself,"
Aleksandr interjected. "I believe he reached the U.S. ahead of us—it took
us time to get our travel documents in order."
"Quiet, Aleksandr!"
Galina snapped. "Annushka, please. It's him. He is free. And
he will seek out—"
"Galina, I warned you not to
bring this up." GM's tone was sharp.
"Annushka!" Galina cried.
"He's dead, Galina," GM
said sternly. "Enough!"
"He's returned!"
"Nonsense!"
"Annushka! How can you say
that? He killed your daughter!"
A chair scraped back violently.
"Superstition killed my
daughter!" GM shouted.
"Annushka! You must
listen!" Galina wailed.
"Get out of my house!" GM
cried.
I heard porcelain shattering
against a wall, and two more chairs scraped back.
I got to my feet.
I watched in shock as Galina and
Aleksandr ran down the hall to the front door. GM came running after them.
Galina fumbled with the locks, and
then she and Aleksandr escaped out into the night. GM ran after them.
I quickly followed.
The cold night air cut through my thin
nightclothes as I hurried down the concrete driveway in front of the house.
GM was standing in the middle of
the driveway, breathing hard. Strands of silver had worked their way free of
her ponytail and settled in scattered array around her head, glinting softly in
the moonlight.
Galina and Aleksandr jumped into a
car that sat just behind GM's own. The engine roared to life, and the car took
off, tires screeching.
I watched the car's red taillights
disappear into the night, and then I glanced over at GM—I had never seen her so
angry.
"GM, what's going on?" I
asked.
GM whirled around. She stared hard
at me for a moment and then looked down at the silver cross she always wore. She
wrapped her fingers around it and gripped it tightly.
"I'm sorry," GM said quietly.
"I wanted to spare you all of that. I never should have let them in."
"Are you all right?" I
asked. "Who were those people? Why did the woman—Galina?—why did she say a
man killed my mother? I thought she died of a fever."
Anger blazed in GM's eyes. "Your
mother did die of a fever. Galina doesn't know what she's talking
about."
GM's expression softened as she
continued to look at me. "Come back into the house, Katie. It's too cold
out here."
GM put her arm around my shoulders
and guided me back toward the gold rectangle of light that streamed out of the
still-open door.
I stopped suddenly. I'd thought for
just a moment that I had seen a tall figure standing in the shadows near the
house. I blinked and looked again.
The figure was gone.
"Is something wrong?" GM
asked, looking around as if she feared that Galina and Aleksandr had returned.
"No, it's nothing. I thought I
saw something, but it's gone now."
GM steered me firmly into the house
and locked the door behind us. Then she guided me into the kitchen. "How
about a hot drink?"
I looked around the room. Three of
the kitchen chairs were standing awkwardly askew. On the kitchen table were two
of GM's blue-and-white china cups. One of the cups lay on its side, its
contents spilled on the table—a brown puddle on the white surface. I could see
shards of a third cup littering the floor, and a brown stain ran down the far
wall.
"Did you throw a cup of tea at
those people?" I asked.
GM simply made a derisive sound and
waved her hand. Then she went over and kneeled down to examine the broken
teacup. I knew that she was very fond of that tea set, and she wasn't the type
to lose her temper easily.
"GM, what made you so
angry?" I asked.
She ignored my question. "It
occurs to me now that it was a bad idea to bring you in here. I'm sorry you had
to see this."
She straightened up and calmly
retied her ponytail. Then she put her hands on her hips and looked over at me.
"I think this will all keep
till morning. Never mind about that drink now. We've had enough excitement
tonight. It's up to bed for both of us."
"GM!" I cried as
frustration welled up within me. "You're acting like nothing
happened!"
GM gave me a puzzled, slightly
wounded look, and I felt a wave of contrition wash over me—I wasn't used to
shouting at her.
I went on more quietly. "Why
won't you answer any of my questions?"
"I did answer one—about your
mother," GM replied, averting her eyes.
I wasn't going to let her get away
so easily. "No, you told me something I already knew—my mother died of a
fever. You didn't tell me why anyone would believe she'd been murdered. That is
what Galina was saying wasn't it? That a man from your old village had killed
her? And why wouldn't you allow Galina to say his name?"
GM looked at me, and I could see a
distant flicker of pain in her eyes.
She held out her hand. "If you
will go upstairs with me, I will tell you a story. It will help to
explain."
I hesitated. Too often, GM had
distracted me when I had asked questions like these—she had diverted my
attention from the past and sidestepped my questions without ever refusing to
answer them outright. I feared she would talk around me again.
My questions would evaporate the
way they always did.
"Please, Katie, come with
me," GM said, her voice low and pleading. "You know the past is
difficult for me."
I resigned myself and took GM's
hand.
We went up to my room.
GM switched on the light. The lamp
by my bed had a faded shade with yellow sunbursts on it. I'd kept it for years,
refusing a new one when GM had wanted to redecorate. My mother and I had
painted the shade together one summer long ago.
GM smoothed back the quilt on my
bed. "Let me tuck you in." She sounded sad and tired.
After I had settled under the
covers, GM sat down beside me.
"I will tell you something I
have never told you before, Katie. The night your mother died—"
GM's voice quavered, and she
stopped.
She composed herself, and then went
on.
"The night your mother died
was the worst of all—for the fever, I mean. It had raged through her body, and
she had reached a point at which she could no longer find comfort of any kind. She
couldn't eat or drink; she couldn't sleep. She couldn't even close her eyes for
more than a few moments to rest—she said closing them made the burning behind
them worse. On that last night, she kept calling for your father, and of
course, your poor father was already gone—dead in that terrible accident. She
was crying out for him to protect you. Even in her delirium, she knew she
wouldn't last long."
GM paused again. Her chin had begun
to tremble.
She composed herself once more and
went on in a low voice. "When I could make her understand who I was—when I
could make her understand that I was her mother—she begged me to protect you. She
said, 'Swear to me that you will always protect Katie.' She need hardly have
asked for that—the desire to protect you had been in my heart since the day you
were born. But I swore it to her then, and I swear it to you now. On my life, I
will always protect you."
GM stared at me steadily as she
said the words, and I felt tears stinging my eyes. Soon they began to fall.
"After I made my promise,"
GM said, "Nadya seemed to grow calmer. She asked to see you. I brought you
in, and she kissed you on the forehead. You were sleeping and didn't wake. Then
she sang her favorite piece of music—no words, just a hum. Do you remember
it?"
I nodded. When I was a child, my
mother had often sung the same melody to me. It was from a piece of music by
Mussorgsky.
GM went on. "Not long after
she finished singing, Nadya was gone. I swore to her that I would protect you,
and I have. And I will. That's why I moved you out of the old village. That's
why I moved you out of Russia right after your mother died. I had to get you as
far away as I could from people like Galina. She is a good woman, but her
thinking is trapped in the Dark Ages. She would warp your mind as she warped
your mother's. She has nothing for you but superstition and shadows."
GM rose. "I love you, Katie. Believe
me when I say there is nothing out there. There is nothing in the
dark."
She pressed a kiss to my forehead,
as she'd said my mother had once done, and then left the room, closing the door
behind her. And I was left feeling less comforted, rather than more so.
I was grateful to hear a story
about my mother, even though it was painful—I could feel her love reaching out
to me across the years. But as I had feared, GM hadn't actually answered any of
my questions—instead she'd left me with more.
Why had she said there was nothing
in the dark?
What was she afraid of?
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